Update: Where Have I Been?
Hello my lovely ladies,
I wanted to take some time and write to you on a personal and honest level on where I have been and why I haven’t been posting.
The truth is is that my mental health has not been good and has got worse over the last few months.
Ever since I was in middle school [probably around 12 years old] I’ve struggled with Major Depressive Disorder/Clinical Depression. Sadness, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and everything in-between have been my current state of mind and I’ve been working on getting better day by day. But, it still has been really hard. In the past, I’ve been to therapy and I have learned that certain triggers can jump start my depression and can keep me in a low. I won’t get into mine, but some examples are dealing with school or work, relationships or family issues/drama. I didn’t figure out my triggers until I went to see someone. I definitely recommend seeing a therapist at some point as they can help you uncover things from your past or present on why you feel this way, why it’s causing it, and ways to help you improve your mind and life.
Whenever I get in this state of mind I shut down and lose my drive completely. I haven’t been writing, getting out of bed has been hard and sometimes I can’t even get myself dressed. To be honest, these past few months I’ve maybe used my beauty products once or twice and have even gone days without washing my face. It’s all skincare no-nos! I know! I hate to even admit it, but it’s the truth.
Also, I’ve been in a rut with writing on here. I love K-Beauty products and anything to do with skincare but, I’ve really just become burnt out and have had a serious case of writer’s block. It’s an awful place to be in, a rock and a hard place. I’ve been trying to get back at it and try to get my inspiration and creativity back. I think it’s going to be a gradual gain but I know I can get there. Please be patient with me! 🙂 Thanks for your love and support. xoxo
If you’re ever feeling low and need to talk to someone you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or if you don’t want to talk with someone you can text here at the Crisis Text Line. And for my international friends, International crisis centers and lifelines can be found here.